Missing the inevitable

V invited me to her bible study group tonight. Between dinner and the start of bible study we had some time to chat about what we value most in life, and it suddenly dawned on me that I actually miss my family more than I thought I have or actually admit. Looking back at pics taken as far back as 2004 or 05, reminded me of all the fun things I've done with my siblings, the joys we had being with one another, and the little fights that we had that made our childhood so memorable. Maybe I should go home in December.

Our bible study was in a simple place of gathering, with a mix of different professionals, mainly postgrad students, lead by a retired orthopaedic surgeon. He really inspires me with his message and fluency with the Word of God. Unlike some wiffly waffly talks that many people do, he went down to the simplest way one can interpret verses. We went through quite a number of verses, but the one that challenges me most is this particular psalm:

Psalm 15
A psalm of David.    
¹ LORD, who may dwell in your sanctuary?
       Who may live on your holy hill? 
 ² He whose walk is blameless
       and who does what is righteous,
       who speaks the truth from his heart
³ and has no slander on his tongue,
       who does his neighbor no wrong
       and casts no slur on his fellowman,
 ⁴ who despises a vile man
       but honors those who fear the LORD,
       who keeps his oath
       even when it hurts, 
 ⁵ who lends his money without usury
       and does not accept a bribe against the innocent.
       He who does these things
       will never be shaken.

Can I really make it? Definitely not without the Spirit of God.

P for prayer

Yes, I have forgotten. P for prayer. How important it is! My colleague called me last night, and we prayed together for another fellow colleague who is also Christian, whom we have been trying to reach out, but somehow she has closed up to everyone else. I thought I was the only one who felt the burden to help her, but now I've found someone else to pray with.

I have to sincerely admit, it is difficult to be a Christian amidst all these chaos. But sometimes coming into my room, and forgetting everything else, and just remembering God is always here- it really helps. Yahweh is.

I hope you will find peace again, my friend, I hope God will be with you as you go to work. I hope God will help me find a way to reach out to you again.

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On a different note, I seriously need a bigger room! And I hope today will be another great time of learning during on-call.

Thanks for being my friend

In dedication:
To friends who love me for who I am, To friends who believe in me, To friends who stay by my side through thick and thin, To friends who still keep in touch. Your phone calls, emails and SMSes and of course the visits and meet-ups are greatly appreciated; every single one of them. :)

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Thanks for being my friend

There are aplenty one cannot achieve alone

Your existence makes me realise that i am not alone in this journey

There are situations which one cannot take on alone 

When you are beside me

You can share the load

and chase away the storm

Thanks for being my friend

Thanks for sharing my pain

My life seems to be more meaningful

Perhaps I am on my own but I do not feel alone

Thanks for being my friend

Thanks for sharing my beautiful dreams

Those touching moments which can bring tears to my eyes;

No one can take them away.

(repeat)

2.28: Your breath on my freezing palm warms me up;

It's like seeing stars through the gaps between dark clouds

(repeat) 

Introduction of this song and its translation courtesy to Judy and her friend; ask your friend to forgive me for perfecting the english and changing it slightly to my own liking. Still the meaning remains the same :P

hmm, for a moment there i forgot what i wanted to blog about tonight. hmmm...

Oh yeah, it has been a fantastic weekend. Nothing can compare to being in the presence of God and the family of God, strengthening each other with His Words. These people are just awesome. Steven Kennedy from Hillsongs Australia, preached a powerful message regarding prayer this morning, the podcast is available in the church website/ iTunes MyNCLC (mp3). I am still trying to adapt to the praise and worship in NCLC though, but I do see its resemblance with the way things work back in Hope Serdang. Sigh, I miss Hope Church, and our IMU CG. I feel we should revive our once-in-a-blue moon mass email, which is usually initiated by either CW or KC. Sadly both of them are working madness hours now, one in Seremban and the other in Glasgow (i think he's still there, but correct me if i'm wrong, fellow CGians, if you're still reading this).

Finally got my iTouch to work again, and this time my bible applications is up and running after such a long long time. I continue to subscribe to Stephen Fry's PODGRAMs, he never fails to amuse and educate me, and am still reading his book on his journey to America. If you have a chance- download his "Bored of the Dance" podcast episode. I literally ROFLOL listening to it. I have to say though, as much as I respect this highly opinionated, intelligent man, I find myself very often disagreeing with him, which isn't all bad, as now I have grown to be proud to not just agree with what everyone says, possibly something that I used to do once upon a time, but have my own opinions too and stand by them.

Bought myself a pair of to-die-for working shoes for an excellent bargain, something to keep me going on a 12 days week. Evelyn, you ARE indeed a bad influence! :P

Looking at my weekly schedule, I am finally adapting to working life, and I see the gaps filled with activities that do not just involve medicine, a balance of work, exercise (yes finally after 3 long months of inactivity), God and friends. Oh we cannot leave out food and cooking and my oh-so-dramatic American dramas!

Fingers crossed next week will be another week of greater learning and helping others. And I cannot wait for the lecture on inotropes. Thank goodness, it's not just me who doesn't understand this topic, the humble SHO doesn't too, or perhaps he is just too humble.

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